THE BEST I NEVER HAD

Me and Pam :) 03-12-11

Last Saturday, I had a coffee date with one of the dearest person to me. Pam. J She was my classmate for 4 years in college. Also, she captured my heart at certain point in time.

We were just acquaintances then. I got intimidated by her presence because of her looks, that’s why I stayed out of her way. Our story started way back in our 3^rd year college, when we worked together in a major class requirement. She spilled to me that she had a crush on me back in our 1^st year. Cliché as it is, and the rest was history.

Well, did we have a relationship? Both of us don’t know what really happened between us, but I think we both know that we became special to each other before, and proud to say, even now.

She is the only girl so far that kept me wanting for more. She has a complex attitude that no one can predict. In short, the time when I was with her is like a roller coaster ride, thrilling and at the same time, fun.

We shared lots of happy moments, coffee dates, some movie dates, and I even had my two consecutive birthdays with her. If not the most, she is one of the most thoughtful person I knew. Random letters, unexpected gifts, lollipops and all that, are what I miss about her.

Assuming that my calculations are correct, our untagged relationship lasted for about a year and a couple of months. We don’t know why it ended, that’s alright, because we don’t even know why it started. It’s not our busy schedule, nor incompatibilities that hindered our relationship from getting into the next level. I guess it’s because, both of us decided not to pursue it. Why? Well, she has her reasons, fair enough, I have mine, and we’ll just keep it that way.

So far, she’s the best I never have or had. But nonetheless, I have no regrets on my choices not to fight for something that's not there. True enough, we had ended that chapter in our lives, but that ending just flipped a new page for us, and that’s what we both call “friendship”, a true and lasting “friendship”. We're both happy and better this way. More coffee dates for us! J