Lately I’ve been browsing the net for possible graduate schools to enroll at this coming summer. Yes, I’m now on the brink of choosing to return to school once more. But the more I search for possible graduate courses, it’s more difficult for me to choose, it’s because I have too many choices, and honestly, I don’t really know what I really wanted.
ARTS
I’m a south paw, it is an orthodox term for people who’s right lobe of their brain is more dominant than its left. Scientifically speaking, south paws, like me, are creative. Ok, I’m not bragging here about my talents, but I can draw better than other people, and that’s why I searched for art-related courses.
Upon searching, all I saw were art-related courses that were infused with technology. Uhm, interesting, but it made me think, I’m not even a master of any software that were mentioned in the description of the course, so it’s back to scratch once more for me?
I also got interested in a Production Design course, however, as I remember; the tuition fee is too high for me. Not to mention that the course offered is from a prestigious university here in my country. Fail!
ACADEME
Surprised as I may describe it, that’s what I felt when I got my first-real job, the academe. After 4 years in college with me being fed with media and communication, there I was, a teacher.
Being a teacher at my age then was quite exhausting. I teach subjects that were not my forte, add the challenge in my part. More than the stress, I enjoyed teaching as I recall. It’s priceless when you impart knowledge on students. But I can’t be anything but honest, that I don’t have enough knowledge to be good educator.
Included in my search for possible graduate course are those which are academe-related. The first course which caught my attention is Master of English and Literature Non- Thesis. Oh yeah! The last part of the course name, made me more excited to take it. Non-Thesis!
But as I had a recap of my short-lived career in the academe, I learned to love teaching in Social Sciences more than teaching English subjects. So why in hell am I going to take this course? I even dropped an English subject which I’m supposed to teach in my previous career.
As I cited earlier, I enjoyed teaching Social Sciences than English, simply because I find it more interesting. In my net search, I saw a Master of Political Science non-thesis. Oh my, another non-thesis graduate course, this could be great.
However, fear struck me. If I’ll take an Academe-related graduate course, I might find myself stuck in the Academe for the rest of my life. And I don’t want that to happen.
CORPORATE
My recent job is on the corporate world. I think I like it better than the Academe. Even though I didn’t search yet for a possible course, my fear of letting my creative side stagnate haunts me.
The corporate world is not a plain canvass where you can choose the color you want to paint it with. Anyone who’s ready to enter it must be armed with good conforming-to-social-norms skills.
I like my job, but honestly, I’m not in-love with it. I have good bosses but not the best. I have hard-working and kind officemates, but not those who are not competent enough on their field.
I wonder if I’ll enter another corporate office with scolding bosses but the best, or snob officemates but do possesses skills and intelligence.
Yes, I’m challenged, and at the same time, scared, to take a Corporate-Related Course.
LAW
This is the biggest shot I have. Modesty-aside, I graduated Cum Laude in college, in that sense; my school gave me a scholarship for it. But for now, I’m even half-convinced that I’ll grab it.
I hate reading, and Law is all about reading cases. Sorry I can’t do that.
MASS COMMUNICATION
So far, there were only few Mass Communication graduate-courses that I found. Hmmm. Ok, aside from the fact that Philippines is number 2 in most-killed journalist country, the stress I’m about to face is more fearful for me.
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This blog is supposed to be an explanation why I find it hard to choose a course because of the diversity of my interests.
Honestly, this is not the conclusion of this blog. But when I had review of it, I realized that it’s not that I have lots of interests that’s why I find it hard to choose a course. I think it’s because the fear of inconvenience and getting out the box is really deal here.
Instead of aligning my favorite choices, it seemed that I listed the reasons why I’m not supposed to take them. Now it comes to me, that I’m still not ready to study again.
Perhaps I’ll just be crossing the bridge when I get there, that's when i learn to let go of my fears.
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