“Many of us gets distracted by urgencies, addicted to urgencies, and even mistakes urgencies of importance”
-Elvira Balinas, PhD, via Facebook
I woke up one morning, when suddenly, I am in a room, sitting in front of a poker table with a man on a cloak shuffling a deck of cards. The man in the cloak dealt the cards without me being ask if I really want to play. The pot money then was amounting to 600 thousand pesos, while I only have 10,000 pesos, convenience, and time to spend with my family and friends in my hand.
I need to think fast whether I’ll fold or gamble my belongings. The pot money offered by the man was really tempting. I only have a minute or two to decide. I was scared, I mean really scared to place a bet. I was about to fold, but unconsciously, I bet all of what I have.
THE END OF THE PARANOIA
The paranoia that’s been killing me slowly these past weeks is officially over. Unfortunately, I am correct, everything that was promised by the man in the cloak all left without a single trace, not to mention the money that I, my family, and all of those dreamt the same dream, spent with this illusion.
Honestly I’m not disappointed to the fact that I’m here to stay near to everyone that I love. But what hurts me in this incident is that the paranoia that haunted me is the same paranoia that is now haunting my parents.
It is my parents’ idea to share the scam-painted-into-a-blessing to my relatives. The intention is for my relatives to experience the possibility of a good life in a foreign land with us. But unluckily, we, together with them, were all tricked with the man in the cloak.
Yes, we all choose to bet, but all of us lose the game, not because our hand was bad, but because the game was a complete misdirection right from the start.
When the man in the cloak vanished, I don’t know what to do or even where to go, in fact, all of us felt the same way.
FOR MY PARENTS
There’s no question to their visions for us to have a good life, to the point that they’ll sacrifice almost everything that they have. They may be distracted by urgencies at the time of the deal, but then, what I saw is that their sight was blurred because of the promise of good life for us: their children. If time comes that I’ll be having a family, perhaps, I will also gamble like what they did.
They may be facing this adversary at this moment, but I together with my brothers, and sister will never leave them alone in this fight. We’ll together face this storm with hope, so we must hold on to each other until it will all be over.
FOR MY RELATIVES
In behalf of my family, I apologize for making you involved in this incident. Though you swore that “walang sisihan”, but then, I’m still sorry.
Though this might sound sour-graping, but this misfortune also gave me the chance to spend more time with my cousins. If it isn’t for this incident, I won’t know that I and Kuya Erwin share not only our birthday, but also the same favorite meal in a fast food chain.
Also, I had a chance to bond with my Quaizon cousins and Auntie Zenneth , wherein we shared memories from way back, causing us to forget the misery we were encountering at the moment.
I and my family will not stop until the one responsible for this pays, but then, I thank you for your understanding and broad-mindedness that you shared in this time of mischief. Indeed, blood is hell thicker than water.
Maybe the start of this year isn’t good for us all, but remember, we still have 11 months to celebrate the goodness of the rabbit. If we all had a bad start, perhaps, we’ll have better in-betweens and hopefully the best ending for this year.
The best thing to do now is to: learn from our mistakes, stay in tacked, haunt the bitch down, and go on with our lives. Remember, we still have each other. :)
JUST A BAD DREAM
Then there I was, bet all of what I have, the man dealt the cards unevenly, and I loss. The losing part is not the one which made me think; rather the fear of betting itself makes me wondered.
Then I realized that most often than not, people who are afraid to gamble are not cowards after all. They are those who already have something valuable in their hands, valuable enough to make a chance pass by.
In my case, I have an even-compensating job, good officemates, unbeatable set of friends, loving relatives, and the best family in the world, so what is 600 thousand in exchange for those, right?
Then a familiar ring sounded, I woke-up and realized that I was just in a bad dream, where in I must get out of my bed, go to work, and really work hard for a good future. This way will surely take a long time; however, it is the surest way I know and that I have at the moment.
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