Leaving my 21st Age

(My 100th Post)

This is my second attempt to write this entry. My first attempt was a failure due to lack of quiet place, self- composure, and concentration. Finally, I regained what I’ve lost a while ago.

One and a half hour to go before I bid goodbye to my 21^st age. Oh yes, I’m turning 22.

The coming day is my favorite day of the year. Simply because I gather more attention from the people I know, compare to any other day of the year. I get more text messages, more posts on my wall, and more appreciation from family, friends, and other people.

Everyday, I strive to get attention to people, well, I guess that’s my way of testing my level of  acceptance, whether from my family, friends, or even in the work place. But tomorrow, everything will be effortless. Attention will just pour.

Another special thing about my coming birthday this year is that, it’s my first to celebrate my birthday with me being compensated. Technically, I was already employed last year, but sadly, I was not yet compensated at that time. That’s why this year; I see to it, that I’ll share this day to people who are dear to me, and give them, a treat as well.

According to plans, 2 of my birthday parties were successful. Though today, one flopped, and tomorrow, that is supposed to be the grandest, is about is still uncertain, I would still want to keep a good spirit within me.

Actually, this birthday is the most stressful so far. One thing is that I have to budget my money for my supposed-to-be 4 parties, while the other thing is the pressure of getting older.

I’ll be 22 in few hours, and closer to being 25, the marrying age in my country. In the past days, I was bombarded with thoughts of me being single, and what I really want in a partner. Let’s just keep it this way, realism versus idealism. Enough said.

But if I keep on over thinking, perhaps I’ll just spoil this day, where I waited and anticipated so much. Let’s just say I’ve planned and thought too much about the future, making this age turn-over a larger and complicated issue for me.

 So in short, what I plan tomorrow is having no plans at all. I’ll just let it pour, unfold itself, welcome in another year in life, and create memories out of it.