A DREAM THAT IS YET TO BE DREAMED

Start: 10:29am

This morning, our librarian, Ma’am Judith, showed me her Aunt’s picture in Canada. Her Aunt works as a food attendant in the said country. Ma’am Judith is also in the process of applying for the same post in the same country.

The offer for the work as food attendant in Canada is really tempting. I can earn as much as 9 times compared to my salary here, or even 3 times as much as my dad’s salary. Isn’t that convincing enough?

Here are some of my inspirations in leaving for the country for work:

• I can give a better financial aid to my family. We’re not rich, or something near there. I can say we earn in average, enough to have a happy and decent life. But with my parent’s perseverance and goodness, I think they, together with my brothers and sister, deserve to live a better life.
• I can live independently. Armed with myself and a handful of determination, I want to live independently, working hard, earning my own money and having the pride to stand in my own bare feet. No rules to follow but mine alone.
• It will be my first time to travel overseas. As they say, hit to birds with one stone. While I’m there, I won’t just work, I also would like to go places, experience what is like on the fall and winter season, eat different kinds of foods, and experience different culture.
• I can save and prepare for my future. I am single, and that serves as an advantage in venturing in other countries for work. With that status, I can save enough money for myself so that in the near future, I can have a capital for a business or in starting a family of my won (if there will be).

On the other hand, here are some of the reasons that hinder me in dreaming for this opportunity:

•  True enough, there’s no place like home. I am close to my family and to friends. I’ve invested too much time with them, making me closer to them. In moving in to another place, it’s easier to travel with a little baggage at hand. In my case, they are the baggage that I need to let gofor the meantime.  It will be hard, but it will be all for the better.
• It’s my first time to live alone. Related with the first reason of not leaving, since I was a child, there will always be a mom by my side cooking my meals, a dad giving an allowance and friends to text when I’m down. In living independently, I don’t have anyone beside me but myself. Can I handle this: laundry, budgeting, lonely nights or even lonely holidays? But who knows, I’m at the right age to be mature enough to stand alone.
• I have to give-up the good life. Right now, I can say that we have a better life than before. I have a free temporary house, free of bills, has two house maid, has a good job that is very convenient (walking-distance from home), and I got used to the weekend night life. In my potential work abroad, I have to give up all of this convenience or the good life that I have.
• My Bachelor’s Degree will be on the brink of getting wasted. I worked hard in college to have good grades and so that I can venture in media (I graduated A.B. Mass Communication). The work offered overseas is not even related to my course, this may cause in my brain drain on my part.

Money, branded stuffs, good house, car and a Canadian bank account. Who doesn’t want to have these? As much as possible, I don’t want to base happiness on material things or on aspiring good life to my family. But I guess it’s not a crime to hope and work hard for a good life.

Again, I am pre-emptying everything. Nothing is sure yet. I even didn’t have my passport renewed. But I just can’t contain it to myself, that’s why I might as well blog it.

End:11:29am