100 years by Five For Fighting

Last night I was writing one of my dream entries, my death note. But after I finished my introduction, I felt blank for the next part, that’s why I decided not to continue it. Now, instead of continuing it, I’ll just share my desired song to be played in my funeral in the future.

May 16, 2011

Here it is.

 

E-MAIL: A MEDIA OF A POSSIBLE CHANGE

“There are two types of evil people in the world, the one who do evil stuffs, and the one who sees evil stuffs and doesn’t do anything” – Mean Girls (Movie)

The institution that I’m working for right now is a normal work place. As I classified it normal: it has politics, gossiping, mud-slinging, and factions. Upon entering in the corporate world, I had realized that these disgusting actions are normal.

Last week Wednesday, our company president called to set-up a staff meeting in 9:00 in the morning. It’s quite unusual for us, because it’s been a long time since our president meet us or even visit his office. At first, I thought that the meeting is all about our appointment. Prior to that day, we can hear hearsays about our regularization, and that meeting is supposed to be the official announcement of our appointment, but we were all wrong.

After giving a little hint on our regularization issues, our president brought out papers. He said that the paper is a hard copy of an e-mail sent to him. We all wondered about the subject of that e-mail. Then he spilled it out.

Surprisingly, the e-mail is all about our institution and the issues that circulated it before and to date. We were all surprised. Corruption, unfairness, and inefficiency of some employees are just some of the topic of the e-mail. Apparently, most of the topics mentioned were true and can be justified.

We don’t saw that e-mail coming, and we were all caught off-guard. The sender of the e-mail was unidentified, but anyway, it’s not that important to find out who it was. The point is that, after a long time of this issues being ignored, finally, they were all brought up in front of our president.

That incident leads our president to talk to us one to one, on the day after tomorrow. Before that one to one talk, we all listed our concerns and the changes we want to suggest to the administration.

Friday last week, our president meets us individually for our concerns. After we’re all done with the meeting, we had a feeling that one of us will be fired because of the confessions we spilled. Some of us got a little bit guilty, but I don’t. Simple rule of the society: commit a crime, get punished. Justice will prevail, even at a workplace.

Now we’re all still waiting for the confirmation of our regularization, appointments, and the verdict on our laid-down issues.

Funny how it seems that after a long time of silence, one of us stood-up to fight for the things he/she believes to be righteous, no matter what’s his/her interest behind it, or even his/her motivation, the important part is that, it create an impact and a change for all of us. In this sense, the actions I tagged as "normal" in a work place, will all seem to be taboo because of the e-mail and courage of that sender.

Fries :)

This is the best commercial for me so far. This fastfood chain never fails to put up simple but catchy advertisements. :)

IMPULSES AND ALL THAT

“Rely on impulse and not even your thoughts can betray you”

The quote stated is from Kurama. As I understand it, sometimes, you have to trust your impulses, those sudden actions and tactless moves. In that case, thoughts and assumptions will not be blamed in the consequences of your actions.

I’m a cautious person, I study the situations first before I lay my cards down. But recently, I had a change of style. Shameful I am to say, it is because of desperation.

Two days ago, my cousin texted me about her fellow online gamer which can be a possible partner for me. Let’s hide that gamer in this pseudo name “V”.

I searched V’s facebook account and found that V is interesting. So I got excited. I set my other albums on my account in private, so that V will only see my best photos. Yes, I came that far for a good impression Kill me for that!

Yesterday, V added me as a friend, and I immediately accepted V’s request. Then I sent V an instant message, but V didn’t replied. A while ago, I sent V another instant message, this time V replied, searching for my cousin.

Impulse struck me, I did the first move, I asked a question and V didn’t answer back. Ok, I had enough of this.

Perhaps my ego was dilapidated because of that incident. It’s not my style to do the first move, but then I did. Impulse. I tried to change my style in reaching out to others but apparently, I didn’t work. Randomly, I laugh out, because after all, I realized that I can impulsive in some situation.

But what haunts me now is that I look down on myself as if I’m desperate, technically, I am. And the only antidote for this poisonous desperation is to be myself. So I immediately set my albums on “friends only”. Where in my friends can see my memories I cherished, where in the past days, I conceal them just because of an approval of a stranger. Now, I have plans on deleting V on my friend list, but then, I’ll just test the waters these coming days.

I’m back to myself right now. Calculating, assuming is what I do best in relationships. You can call me play safe and egoistic, but that’s ok. There’s nothing wrong in calling an apple, an apple. Though the only thing I don’t regret in this past event, is that one time in my life, I became impulsive. True enough, I can’t blame my assumptions and calculations in this part, but myself alone. And I must say, impulses can bring twists and turns in life. :)

3 Missed in a Row :(